Selasa, 10 November 2020

With Those Lips

He kisses others with the same lips that touched mine days ago. Aren't this enough reason to quit now, me?

Betrayed Over and Over

Feel betrayed over and over
By the same person
And I can only blame myself for making the same mistake

Minggu, 01 November 2020

Thanks for The Coffee

We always have that kind of mixed feelings about each other, I'm sure about it.

We won't always get along, I don't even know if we're still get along. I decided to stay away to give both of us time to heal.

But one thing that never change, I always have something related to her to be thankful for. Back then, I was thankful for the honest answers for my questions and the plain truth. Lately, it's for her recommendation of coffee beans. I'm officially a coffee drinker now and I thank you for that, lady.

Life sucks for women like us, but I hope you will always stand tall and tell it to fuck off.

Jumat, 30 Oktober 2020

Vertical Horizon's Everything You Want

Today I mumbled Vertical Horizon's Everything You Want over and over. Over and over. But the lyrics was altered.

He's everything I want, he's everything I need, he's everything inside of me that I wish I could be.
He said all the right things and exactly the right time.
But he means nothing to me and I don't know why.

I guess I'm just troubled, too complicated to appreciate your simplicity. All I know is broken things, the lips that I kissed were painted with lies, your pure soul is alien to me. So believe me when I say you're too good for me. I just don't know how to love anything that's not colored in black :)

Selasa, 22 September 2020

Note to Myself

Dump, throw away toxic people from your life.
They add nothing to your happiness or peace of mind.
Let them close because you have no morr feelings at all? That's a bullshit. You lie to yourself and in the process of hurting yporself further.
They were called toxic for a reason, you know 😁

Selasa, 15 September 2020


Not that I don't want to know. I force myself to not find out, to don't know. Capek, bosss. Saya ndak semasokis itu ternyata 😌

Kamis, 13 Agustus 2020

Welcome, Light Heart 😁

Wake up in the morning with light heart, no heavy stone in my chest.

For the first time, I expect nothing from you. I was hoping you could change, treat me better, treat your current partner right, apologize to each of us sincerely, etc.

But now I accept the fact that you're you, a cheater, liar, coward, narcissist, childish poser, and probably will never change. It's not my job for putting you in my prayer every night. I'll let you make another mistake after mistake and never learn your lesson.

For the first time, I can honestly say I don't really care. Hahah. I'll see what I feel tomorrow and the days after. Hopefully, it's permanent. Because it's really liberating and I'm happy.

Today I'm thinking of you as another Nobel in my life. A-good for nothing-laughable ex. No anger, no longing. Not even annoyed anymore.

Naranobel Putra Bijaksana, Fandy Diadline Widi Anugrah. Laughable exes.