Thanks for The Coffee

We always have that kind of mixed feelings about each other, I'm sure about it.

We won't always get along, I don't even know if we're still get along. I decided to stay away to give both of us time to heal.

But one thing that never change, I always have something related to her to be thankful for. Back then, I was thankful for the honest answers for my questions and the plain truth. Lately, it's for her recommendation of coffee beans. I'm officially a coffee drinker now and I thank you for that, lady.

Life sucks for women like us, but I hope you will always stand tall and tell it to fuck off.

Vertical Horizon's Everything You Want

Today I mumbled Vertical Horizon's Everything You Want over and over. Over and over. But the lyrics was altered.

He's everything I want, he's everything I need, he's everything inside of me that I wish I could be.

He said all the right things and exactly the right time.

But he means nothing to me and I don't know why.

I guess I'm just troubled, too complicated to appreciate your simplicity. All I know is broken things, the lips that I kissed were painted with lies, your pure soul is alien to me. So believe me when I say you're too good for me. I just don't know how to love anything that's not colored in black :)

One Man Show with No Audience

Funny how people like me being loud when no one listening or watching.

Funny how I restrain myself so much on social medias and post on this personal blog almost every hour.

Well, I'm secretly a performer. But my show will never have audience. That's how I like it.

Mirror, Mirror on The Wall

Mirror, mirror on the wall

Tell me, am I unworthy to be loved for my true self?

Am I doomed to be a replacement of someone else for eternity?

Every humanbeing walks on the embrace of mother earth, carrying invisible weight inside.

That person holds the rock of sadness for years, took light steps, as if the world means nothing to him.

She sews the bleeding wound called disappointment, while staring at the sun, as if challenge the world.

You understand, and it's enough for now.

Maybe you'll never be able to tell him how selfish he was, taking you for granted and then blame you for making him doing so.

Maybe you'll never have a heart to tell her how the word 'replacement' and 'copycat' cut so deep inside you.

They're more miserable than you. You feel bad for them.

You understand and it's enough for now.

You admit that you still pray, someday he will make peace with the demon inside him.

You know you'll forgive him someday, though you don't need to let him in your life again to do so.

You know you'll always count her as a friend.

You hope that she will find true happiness someday.

It's all good and that's enough for now.

Now it's time to back off, step aside, and talk to the reflection in the mirror.

The image is getting dull and blurry.

Mixed up with someone else's face.

She cries a river, begging for your attention in silence.

She needs you the most.

So tell her right now.

Smile, because you're the most beautiful when you do that.

No, don't change yourself just to be the opposite of another person.

Yes, being you is good enough for life.

Chin up, because you deserved to be loved for who you are and you will.